Epiphany:
I believe that if you are embarking on a weight loss journey, you wont succeed if you dont truly want to lose the weight. You can say you want to lose weight, but doing it is another thing.
Last year while talking to a male friend, I told him about my struggles with weight loss. He thought very hard about the subject and then replied with, "It's your body... why dont you take care of it?" And thats what started the whole crave to want to lose weight. It just clicked, it made sense in a way that nothing had ever done before.
Now this time... it took 11 months, but it finally happened again. And trust me. I can tell when I have a serious epiphany. Up until these last 11 months, I've been doubting everything. I would eat healthy for a week and then binge on burgers and pizza. I kept saying to myself... "what if I'm not ready to lose weight?" and honestly, I wasn't. But then I had my second epiphany. I went to the mall and talked to a guy at a kiosk who was selling hair straighteners. He asked me how often I washed my hair. I replied with "every day!" ( I'm a huge germ-a-phobe and have to lol). And he replied with, you should wash it every 2-3 days you know... I then told him that I found that gross and he then said...
"Honey, it may be gross but its whats best for your hair. I go running and I eat healthy foods, I take care of myself because I need to. You just have to do it."
And at first I found it quite rude. I felt like I was being slapped by a gay guy with a straightener in hand. But later on I realized that the reason I disliked hearing what he said so much... was because it was true.
And so now I'm continuing my journey.
Starting weight: 210 lbs
Height: 5'5
First goal weight: 185
Second goal weight: 175
Ultimate goal weight: 150
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